Chill Out

I am having a harder time these days recognizing God’s gentle reminders of who He is and why I am here on earth, not for myself but for a greater purpose.  I notice these reminders through people, church, music, nature, and prayer but lately I have been blocked by the cares of the world.  Believing God is real, despite what I see, is testing me.

I had a birthday, a chance to reflect upon what is and what is not yet.  I wasn’t excited about it and my future-tripping self was in full effect.  Our BEAM kids help still my restless heart.  God uses them to speak to me more than anything other means.  Their resilience, courage, kindness and joy are constant teachers.

They blessed me on my “bath” day not only with buckets of water. . .

But also with sweet notes.  The note writing was a secret mission arranged by our social worker.  They ended up using a random pack of stencils I bought at the Dollar Tree last year that I had forgotten about.  I received 15 notes, all with the same stenciled phrase. . .


I couldn’t stop laughing as I read through each one, seeing Gods finger prints clearly through the dollar tree stencils.  Chill out, Colleen, it’s going to be ok.  Chill out, somehow things will work out.  Chill out, there is a God and it is not you.

I am back in the U.S. with one of my main missions being to Chill Out by reuniting with family, resting, and reconnecting with BEAM supporters.  So far so good. . .

Please send me an email if you want to connect with me while I’m in the U.S!

With love and gratitude,


*Please consider a monthly or one time donation to support the BEAM Kenya mission to advocate for the emotional, spiritual, and education needs of impoverished children in Kenya*


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  1. Stephanie Hall says:

    That is SO God to have prepared your “chill out” message long ago without you even realizing it and delivering it when you most needed it. And how great and personal is He to use the source through which He speaks to you most clearly…your children! God is good ALL the time and He knows you so well. It reminds me of the expression, “Jesus knows me this I love.”
    Love you Colleen!

  2. Dearest Colleen,
    “Out of the mouths of babes”……Isn’t it such a gift to realize they are teaching you!!
    Enjoy your R&R……God’s got this!
    Xxoo Laura

  3. So wonderful to have you with us to celebrate family. Time passed to quickly, of course. Love you. Sounds like the kids are wise beyond their years❤️

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