Fight the Fear

I came to Kenya for the first time in 2012 for one monthAnd one month only.  At least that is what I thought.

Hahahaha.  Said God.

I was actively competing in triathlons at the time but I didn’t bring my running shoes because I thought it was too unsafe to run in Kenya.  Yes, I had lots of sweeping generalizations about the entire continent of Africa.

Contrary to my anxious thoughts, safety was never a concern.

Fast forward six years later, and I am living in Kenya.  Even though I run freely these days, if I choose to let my mind wander, there is still so much to fear. . .








The past.

The future.

A few weeks ago, a very considerate friend sent me an article about the peanut butter brand in Kenya that I graciously inhale weekly.  It has been recalled due to an increased amount of aflatoxins.  Turns out it’s not Al Shabaab I should be afraid of but its my own jar of peanut butter.

Who knew???

Although life is not as enjoyable in Kenya without my favorite peanut butter, its absence has reminded of a few basic questions.

How much do I have control over anyway?

Very, very little.

Do I really want to walk through life afraid all the time?

No.  Please no.

What do I do to fight the fear?

Learn to trust that the God who turned my life upside in 2012 is the same God who I can trust on a daily basis to protect me from terrorists, peanut butter, and everything in between.

With love and gratitude,


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  1. It seems the basic human fears are universal…no escaping them, wherever you may live…

    Confidence that we are living in obedience to God, while depending on His undeserved love and grace (despite our perceived success, or perceived lack of success,) is what carries us through the valley of fear and suffering. You are more aware than most people of the battle to walk in the Truth…

    We love you Colleen.

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