Overcoming Perfectionism

I have written my “first” blog about five times now.  I want it to be perfect.  Captivating.  Engaging.  I want it to suck you in so you come back for more day after day.  I want you to like everything I say.  I want to make you laugh.  I want to make you cry.  I want to encourage you.  I want to inspire you.  I want to have a million followers instantly based on the perfection of my first blog and be asked to appear on Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday.  Mock me if you will, but I heart Oprah.

Perfection.

I could go on and on about this word.  My attempt at perfection has delayed this blog quite a few months not only due to the content of my writing – how, what, when, where to write  – but also the overwhelming challenge of actually creating the perfect blog site.  I’m tired though.  Tired of trying to make it perfect.  Tired about worrying if you are going to like what I write.  Tired about wondering if anyone cares.  All I know is that I have a lot that goes on in my brain all day, every day, and for the past year that has translated into a desire to write.  I have pages upon pages of writing about life, my life and yours.  I never intended on sharing it but I have had enough people request I start a blog due to a recent trip to Kenya where I sent out pseudo-blogs to friends and family documenting my trip.  These persistent requests tipped the scale to 51% of me feeling confident enough to fight the 49% of me who feels full of doubt, fear, and insecurity.  I have wrestled with direction, topics, themes, anonymity, and so much more in the process of starting this blog.

I’m anxious.

I’m excited.

I’m hopeful.

I’m scared.

Will you like me?

Will you judge me?

Will you agree with me?

Will you be bored with me?

Some will be clear.

Some will be confusing.

Some will be awful.

Some will be amazing.

But the best ones, the perfect ones, will be the ones that are exactly what you need to read at that very moment to feel better, to feel understood, to feel like there is someone else in the world who understands you, who has been where you have been, and who is FULL of HOPE.

Always,

Hope Kamili

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  1. Yay! Now keep them coming.

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